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Monday, December 7, 2009

Hidup ini satu perjalanan….

Hrmm..bila diputar kembali filem tahun lepas detik 9:30 pagi pabila aku diijab kabulkan..apa yang terngiang di minda..” apakah yang bakal aku lalui untuk kehidupan mendatang?” Diri ini terlalu muda ketika itu untuk memikirkan cabaran yang bakal kutempuhi untuk suatu jangka masa yang panjang sebelum ajal menemuiku.

Kini, setelah satu tahun berlalu,setelah setahun aku membina kehidupan baru, terlalu banyak pengalaman yang kutempuhi,ilmu yang kupelajari yang tidak dapat dipelajari di universiti…semuanya kulalui bersama suami.Sehingga kini kami masih lagi saling bantu membantu untuk lebih mengenali satu sama lain dan mempelajari erti hidup bersama.

Pernah satu ketika di waktu aku baru diakad nikahkan,aku berfikir panjang ,minda sedikit bercelaru..untuk memikirkan realitinya apabila berkahwin suami itu perlu diutamakan lebih daripada segalanya..termasuklah ibu dan ayah ku. Selama 23 tahun kehidupanku..hidupku hanyalah dikelilingi ibu,ayah dan adik beradikku.Merekalah dahan untuk ku berpaut dikala semangat meluntur,pemberi kebahagiaan total untuk hatiku..kutemui sinar ketenangan di mata ibu dan ayah..arrgghhh..semuanya indah bersama mereka..

Perjalananku ini sudah bermula..Aku dan suami masih merangkak untuk mengenal kehidupan.. Cerita ibu dan ayah di awal perkahwinan kini diulang semula oleh kami. Cabaran hidup kini dirasai..Aku syahdu bila mengenang kembali bagaimanalah keadaanya ibu dan ayah pabila membesarkan kami semua..Kepada ibu dan ayah,terima kasih kerana membesarkan aku serta mendidikku selama ini. Tiada hadiah atau penghargaan yang mampu kuberi selain doaku kepada Ilahi semoga kedua ibu bapaku mendapat tempat yang tinggi di syurga kelak.Aminn..

Oh ya..perjalanan karier ku baru sahaja bermula..dan aku berharap agar sekiranya inilah apa yang tuhan aturkan bagi diri ini..aku berserah sepenuhnya pada Ilahi semoga meredhai apa yang aku lakukan ketika ini. Semoga pintu rezeki kami sekeluarga akan terus terbuka luas kerana bagi mukmin dan mukminat, harta yang banyak itu penting bagi pembangunan muslim sejagat. Dengan harta halal yang banyak, banyak benda yang boleh dilakukan untuk disalurkan untuk menegakkan lagi syiar Islam. Oleh itu, janganlah dipandang remeh perkara ini kerana walaupun jasad dan nyawa terpisah dari bumi, tetapi harta yang dimanfaatkan ke jalan yang halal, sahamnya akan terus meningkat sehingga tibanya hari pembangkitan kelak. Oleh itu, kawan2 seagama marilah kita sama2 perbetulkan niat semua untuk mencari rezeki yang lebih agar boleh digunakan untuk menolong insan yang memerlukannya. Itulah yang telah dilakukan oleh para sahabat nabi seperti Umar bin Khatab dan juga Abu Bakar As-Sidiq.Marilah kita mengikut contoh dan teladan yang mulia ini ..

Walaupun hati ini selalu rindu kepada ibu dan ayah..akan ku pegang kata-kata ayah..syurga isteri itu terletak pada keredhaan suami.Wahai ayah…kata-kata mu itu sungguh bermakna pabila nafsu hampir dikuasai amarah syaitan.Akan ku janji untuk terus berusaha setiap hari untuk menjadi insan yang lebih baik dari semalam.Pintaku supaya Tuhan sekali-kali tidak menutup pintu rahmat dan hidayah nya kerana itulah pelita hidupku sepanjang hayat….

Ibu dan ayah…jangan berhenti berdoa untuk kebahagiaan anakmu di dunia dan di akhirat…Walaupun kita jauh terpisah tapi harapanku dan doaku sepanjang hari supaya kita ditemukan kembali di akhirat kelak dalam keadaan semulia-mulia manusia ,dan mendapat darjat yang tinggi di sisi Allah. Semoga kita akan dipertemukan kembali sebagai satu keluarga kelak dan tiada jarak yang dapat memisahkan kita. Insya Allah.. Ohhh..hidup ini hanyalah satu perjalanan yang singkat sehingga kita tidak dapat menyedari betapa cepatnya masa yang telah berlalu…

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Forcing me hard!

Weehuuu.. It’s Sunday everyone! I am the most grateful person on earth to welcome Sunday. I drew a big smiley face on my diary whenever Sunday comes. It is the only day in every one whole week that does not require me to drive in the morning together with the other thousands of drivers and motorcyclists. Excuse me here because I have to say this. I am not a good fan of lorry drivers. I always get scared each time they were next to my cars while driving. I made sure I drove far –off from them. ( emm..I am pretty sure everyone is bored every time I talk about my never ending driving issue. hehehe. )

I do not want to go anywhere today and just want to sit and get body massage plus watching my favourite channels on Astro and reading my story book in our lavish room. ( I think I am just exaggerating the sentence here. :-)) While hubby is snoring jadedly on the bed...(Oh yes, I have to say that I felt pity to him. He works 24/7 everyday and he just came home from hospital this morning. So there is another concrete point that I have to stop complaining about work and driving things.)And again.. While hubby is snoring jadedly on the bed I turn on my laptop and start writing this. I am afraid if one day I have to stop writing because of my responsibilities as a wife, mommy, daughter, and worker that will not allow me to have ample time to do something I love; which is writing. I just realized I could not write under pressure. I used to write on late night circa 2 a.m when I was still a student because I think I write better in soundless night-time when everybody is sleeping, the wind stop breezing, the moon is shining beautifully and I hear me breathing. And now, I have to struggle writing because I can hear everything! If you see clearly, you will start asking what is the main point of my writing today, isn’t it? I am asking the same question to myself now! ( See, it’s proven here!!!)


P/s : I suppose I have to stop now and come up with a better material when I continue writing at night. I will try my best to update my blog as soon as possible. Hope everyone will still support me and read my blog because I will try my best to write when the time is right and the ideas are popping out fast. To Aie, this entry is for you. Hope you will enjoy reading it. hahahahahh

Thursday, November 19, 2009

^_^

Oh hello everyone!! How is your life because my life is full with wonderful colors around me.

There is nothing interesting happening around me except I just went back to my home town (Hola beloved Johor Bahru!!!!!) and enjoyed a great weekend there plus my husband and I have reached our one year old of marriage. I don’t opt to use celebrate here because personally I think we have to celebrate it and try to nourish it every day. We have to let the love grow stronger everyday don’t we?

Oh, JB was and still a lovely place to me. I feel relax and peaceful whenever I go back to Jb. I secretly wish that one day I and my husband will settle down in Jb. The development is moderate and not in a rush like KL and yet you can get everything you want there. People and neighbors are kind and extremely friendly to you as well as the cats! They do not look tense because they are having a normal life without traffic jam. Oh, and how should I relate it to the cats? When the owners of the cats are not stress the cats will be treated well. I have to say my parents have spoiled their beloved cats at home. Oh NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Little by little I am learning to love my job now even though I always pray to God for a miracle to take place in my life. Hey, it is not that bad as I discovered the fact that YTL is such a huge and establish company in Malaysia. Why I never heard the name all these while?? It’s my fault and I am thinking to punch hard my face now. Haiiiyaaaaak…dush!!! I have to change the way I am reading newspaper onwards and remember to take note on anything important in my diary. ^_^ .

YTL will soon deploy a nationwide 4G network service has signed a 15 year agreement Wholesale Ethernet Service and Master Tenancy for Infrastructure Sharing Agreement with Telekom Malaysia Berhad (TM). I have a big desire to be part of the important people here that are working very hard to change this big dream into a reality. It is still a long journey for me to master all the knowledge here and I am mentally and physically prepared to push to gear 5 to speed up my performance fast fast fast! I will be having a Ceragon IP training on next week and that means my weekend is fully booked with ‘machine manual reading session’.

I am literally trying to digest this proverb which I love much “ It is not in doing what you like, but in liking what you do that is the secret of happiness’ ~~ by Sir James M. Barrie.

P/s : Something good is happening to me next week. I am smiling happily and trying not to show it off to people around me. Dear God, Thank you so much for your blessing in my life. Please let me remain to be a humble and modest people for ever and a day because that is what suits me well. Even though I always wanted to keep my eyes on the stars, I wish my feet will be attached forever on the ground…….

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Thank You

It’s been a hectic month at office recently and I love being busy. Oh please let me do all the works.. I am hunger for work. Everyone in office (mostly the men) seems afraid to let me stay late to finish my works as they claim I have bigger responsibilities at home. Ie, to serve my hubby.

October was really a pack month to both of us. Most of the time when we arrived home we just stare at each other and have a good hug, asking about our day and then continue to do our unsettled business. It was so pathetic. It became so obvious when one day I felt an absolute pity to see him doing work on notebook for his never ending presentations in front of his professors when I accidentally fell asleep on our carpet room. When I woke up, he was sleeping silently next beside me. Alhamdulillah everything is running smooth again now.

We enjoy watching Grey’s Anatomy season 5 and House. It feels like heaven. There is no exact word to describe it. And yes, even though it was a hectic month, I should show and express my most gratitude to hubby for helping me a lot in doing house work together. Without his help I am pretty sure our life would be a mess for a whole month. Thank you sayang.

I always feel old and old. Maybe it is because of my increasing age or perhaps I am becoming more mature than my actual age. I just do not know. Maybe it is true.

By being a wife to a doctor you have to prepare yourself mentally and physically, to consider him spending most of his time at hospital and anything could be happened when you have arranged activities and plan together. It’s a tough job to stay awake late at night to open the door when he arrived home from hospital at 2a.m. or 3a.m. and to wake up the next day to go to work.

Besides that sometimes when we went to some places ( shopping or watching movies ) and suddenly he got the emergency call from hospital, we have to rush back to the hospital and I have to wait him at the hospital lobby. If I was lucky, I will get a chance to sit on the sofa, otherwise sadly, standing while waiting is not an option for me. If I was lucky again, it would be about 40minutes but sometimes I have to keep smiling waiting for about 2 hours and more.

And yes, when he is always not around me, most of the things I have to do it myself, the decision has to be made fast, and it must be a good one. There’s no room for a silly mistake because it will only create trouble to my life then. Actually it built up my patience and confidence in handling a bigger thing in life.

That is why people see me today looking so mature than my old face in university. I think I am thinking way too much and I like the new me! I can see things in a different perspective now and I can decide which the best one for me is. Thank you sayang for giving me this wonderful opportunity to explore myself and digging out my inner potential that has been concealed all these while.

And yes. I have to face the fact I am having an old face in a young age. Huhuhu. But hey, it’s an obvious signal “don’t mess around with me!” hahahahahahah. Oh yes, thank you God for giving me this face and this life. Alhamdulillah. ^_^

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Hi












Oh yes. I just had had my convocation on 11th October 2009. It was totally fun to meet again my university friends!

The most important person that I would like to thank here is my mom. Without her in my life, I think it would be impossible for me to complete my study. Thanks mom so much. She said to me during our phone conversation last week “Actually It’s been emotional when seeing you taking the scroll. Even though I let you go early to explore the life on your own (let me married young), but finally my daughter still managed to complete it.” Let me tell you the truth, it was not easy being married at young age when you are still study. You have to adapt to new surrounding and learn fast. There is no choice. Otherwise you will feel loss and drown in your own world. That is what happened to me when I have to struggle very hard to finish my very last semester in university. But Alhamdulillah, even though the track is not smooth in the past, I am able to crawl back slowly from the starting point of my new adventurous life as an employee. I just want to grab all opportunities and will never let any of it goes away.

Oh yes.. I am happy. Nothing big is happening to me now. I am just feeling happy. That’s it. And yes..and tired as well. ^_^

So here are some of the photos during my convocation day: Hope you enjoy watching it.

Friday, October 2, 2009

Bangkit Segera

Di wajahnya tersimpan seribu persoalan,
bagi diri yang gemar memerhati,

Pandangan ikhlas sukar kumengerti,
Apakah perkara bermain diminda?

Diri penat layu di singgahsana,
Aku sayu diam terpaku,

Bangkitla pujangga mara ke depan,
Medan perang menanti pahlawan,
Daku setia berdiri di sisi,
Melawan musuh sedia menanti,

Sinar mentari di ufuk Timur,
Kejayaan mutlak kan pasti milik berdua


By Nur AKmar Bt Muslim

sorry.But I really have to mention it.My husband said I copied it from internet. Argggghhhhh!!!
Sayang, I really can create my own poetry la!
^_^

Thursday, October 1, 2009

A tough decision

It has been 2 months since I am working in this company. I am having so much fun here. Everyone is so charm and kind hearted. I love most my own cubicle, the place where I do my task..The place where I chit-chat with my lovely colleague sue. Oh God, this is so hard for me to leave everything that I have now.

I have learned many new things that I have not learned in university. It’s totally a new atmosphere for me. I am having a good relationship with all staffs at least till now. We are like a family that has a strong bond to one another, and care each other.

But, sadly I think my journey in this company will be ended very soon..There is an important thing that I have to grab out there…it’s about my future life. It is the thing that I always wanted and dream of. In order for me to be someone I wanted to be, I have to move out from my comfort zone and explore the real world await me..

And..it’s just too hard for me to say goodbye to everyone..

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Random thoughts

It’s late in the night and suddenly my hands started to press the keyboard buttons to express my idea and feeling.
Hari Raya is just around the corner and I have not felt the excitement to celebrate this celebration. This is the thing that never happened to me even once in a lifetime. Am I normal to feel this way?? For the first time I feel totally and completely in love with Ramadhan. There is a serene and tranquil feeling deep inside my heart that I could not put it into words to describe it further. And as time passes by, I wish and pray to God to allow me to meet the next Ramadhan by His will Insya Allah.
I am not sure if blogging is still my priority now because I have tried to write as frequent as possible in the past to renew my entry but it would always stuck halfway and I finally threw it in my waste bin.
I think I have already changed to a different person that I once know before. I speak less, and I think more. I laugh less, and I smile more. What is happening to me now?? I am scared to enter the boredom of adult life. But as my age will never go backward and I am approaching 25 next year..I suppose I have to make myself ready to be as tough as I can to face the challenging world await me in future.
I hope if these changes are good for me..Let it stay and be part of Akmar so that I could transform her to become a better person just like what her parents wanted her to be.

Friday, September 4, 2009

That Man

Oh God, I was trying very hard to write something beautiful on someone very special in my life and it happened many times I stuck half way.

I promised myself I will write something very special about him in future.

This is the best That I could come out with;

He’s someone who likes to talk TOO MUCH,

Adorable person

Have a sincere heart which I adore so much

I am scared of him sometimes when he’s having his own ‘PMS’ syndrome

Someone that treat me as his best buddy

A person that I know loves me so much.

And someone that should know his wife loves him unquestionably a lot.

And now I am totally embarrassed if he happens to read this.

( I know I have to learn to open myself and be more romantic) waaaaaaa! This is absolutely a lovey-dovey thing!

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Aduhai..

Setelah sekian lama berehat sementara daripada menulis,saya merasakan benda yang satu ini perlu saya luahkan di sini.

Semua sudah sedia maklum saya kini sudah bekerja bukan? Dan saya juga telah menyatakan majoriti pekerja di sini iadalah lelaki yang terdiri daripada bangsa melayu dan juga cina.

Setelah hampir sebulan saya di sini, saya boleh membuat rumusan hanya 20% sahaja yang menunaikan solat fardu.Selebihnya? Entahla.. Saya sebenarnya sangat sedih sekali dengan situasi ini kerana saya juga berada di bawah satu bumbung yang sama bersama mereka. Yang amat meruncingkan keadaan adalah mereka merupakan golongan lelaki yang sepatutnya membimbing golongan hawa. Sekiranya perkara ini berlarutan akan rosaklah institusi kekeluargaan kelak.

Sudah beberapa minggu saya melihat beberapa orang yang tidak segan silu duduk di pejabat ketika yang lainmengerjakan solat Jumaat. Aduhai..Sedihnya saya melihat situasi ini.

Dan, yang paling mengecewakan saya, sebentar tadi ada rakan pejabat yang menunaikan solat di bilik solat terbau mihun goring di bilik solat lelaki di mana kedudukan bilik solat lelaki dan perempuan adalah bersebelahan.

Saya mendoakan agar mereka semua akan tersedar dari lamunan keasyikan kehidupan dunia yang sementara ini dan segera bangkit untuk menunaikan tanggungjawab terpenting setiap muslim iaitu rukun Islam yang kedua iaitu mengerjakan solat 5 waktu.

Hrmmm..adakah saya akan kekal bekerja di sini? Jawapannya perlu di cari….

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Things happened for the last 2 weeks

1) Our house has been ransacked on the same date I posted “A fresh Thursday”. It did not feel like a fresh Thursday at all. :-(

2) I went for a site visit to find network and signal strength and possibility to place in cabin on top of a rooftop building. It’s terrible up there when you received a direct sunlight in the middle of afternoon and the sun is right on top of your head. My face has turned to be all reddish for one week.

3) After we reached office, there was a meeting being held in the room. 2 staff have been suspected positive H1N1 and asked to be quarantine by hospital. Hence, a drastic action by the board of meeting agreed that all staffs need to be ‘quarantine’ as well at home from Thursday till Sunday. Huhu. So, after 4 pm our office was officially empty.

4) Then, suddenly on Thursday I had a high fever. Everybody at home really obeyed the 'minimum 2 meter distant rule'. My dad ate on a different table during dinner. Sedih.waaaaa.

5) My lovely hubby confirmed I am not positive H1N1 hence I pull out my mask on Friday.

6) Today, I am not in a very good mood. Maybe due to PMS syndrome. So, everybody..please stay away from me.

7) Oh yes, Happy Fasting Month. Hope all of us will get ‘barakah’ on this holy month..insya allah.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

A fresh Thursday

Hello everyone and good morning!

It’s so cold in here..My cubicle…my first ever cubicle when I started working on last Monday approximately on 3rd of August 2009. The office is located at Bandar Damansara and could you imagine how far it takes to drive from Setiawangsa to my workplace??? Adoi..I think I had pampered myself too much in the past.

I am still adapting myself to wake up as early as chickens at 6 am every day. Yes it has to be highlighted for personal purpose. Today, I was totally failed to remember my daily routine as an employee who needs to wake in the early hours when my alarm phone snooze out loud for few times. I was in a state of confusion for a while to remember that today is Thursday and I am no longer a student or even housewife!

In my office..There are lots of men and they occupy majority figure of the seats provided and when three new women staffs including me did report duty on Monday they were a bit shocked and ’jakun’ for a moment. Hence, the total number of women currently is 6 and sometimes it’s a privilege for us being served with civility, politeness and all sort of similar meaning of it from the other gender. (hahaha)

And so far..I am still enjoying this new environment and my colleagues are very nice and kind from the top manager to the cleaner sisters. But in truth I am still hoping to find a job that does not require me to spend so much time in the car just to face a long journey every day. It’s in fact such a tiring routine that I hate most.

I miss being at home longer and being the one who opened the door when my husband come back from hospital at 6pm. I miss to play hide and seek with him when he opened the door where he had to find me hiding behind the sofa. Now, every day at 6 o clock I will be in the car and driving back home to meet my lovely husband..

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Pendapat Anda.

Apakah pendapat anda tentang blog saya ? Adakah ianya terlalu bosan atau terlalu 'skima'? Saya memerlukan 'respon' anda untuk memperbaiki mutu penulisan saya. Sila bantu saya. Komen anda amatlah dihargai. :-)

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

The misery of loneliness...

When I am writing this topic, Fuad is not around because he has to work and earn money for the family and he will only reach home at midnight. Yes. I am alone but I am not lonely.

There are two terms that are quite similar in pronunciation but noticeable difference between the meanings; Aloneness and loneliness. Alone is to be by oneself. You may or might not feel lonely when you are alone and the only important condition is there is no one else around you. To be lonely, is to suffer the feelings of loneliness, to want people, social contact, and yet be unable to get any. Given this fact, it is quite possible to feel lonely when you are alone, and it is also to feel lonely when you are not alone.

Meanwhile, we can separate loneliness into two other types which is the ‘state of loneliness’ and ‘trait loneliness’. State of loneliness is more generated because of the environment rather than the person. For example a person feels loneliness because he cannot go out to play football since it’s raining heavily outside. On the other hand, trait loneliness is generated from the person and they tend to feel lonely most of the time. So regardless of the situation or circumstance when you ever think about it, you are still lonely.

It has been a month since the King of Pop died and the cause of his death is still under a shroud of controversy. Michael’s sister La Toya stated that Michael was the ‘loneliest man in the world’ with no real friends and isolated from his family at the time of his death. So this is another piece of evidence implying that wealth and fame are not everything in this world and it is not a guarantee of a happy life. His loneliness had drove him to become the ghost of himself as he was continuously changing his appearance from 1980’s as like Michael was searching for a new and better look all the time.

Do you know that once we found the right person, entered the right relationship which is marriage our loneliness would also fade away? We do not need one thousand people; we just need one special and correct person. The particular person who can be called as an attachment figure gives us a sense of security and reassurance us to face the world once again. Huh. How magical life is, isn’t it? :-)

Hence, for those who are experiencing loneliness there are things that you can do. Maybe you can get a pet or can strengthen your existing relationships or start to find your Mr Right or Ms Future Wife. For those who already have people in their live, maybe you can get to know one another better and enjoy the existing friendship with your friends. Oh, please get yourself involved in activities since it can create or expand your circle of friends and combat your loneliness.

So here I would love to share the lyrics of Michael Jackson’s late song ‘Chilhood’ and hope we will be able to understand more what Michael had tried to tell us from his lonely heart.

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for the world that I come from
'Cause I've been looking around
In the lost and found of my heart...
No one understands me

They view it as such strange eccentricities...
'Cause I keep kidding around
Like a child, but pardon me...

People say I'm not okay
'Cause I love such elementary things...
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the ChildhoodI've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like pirates in adventurous dreams,
Of conquest and kings on the throne...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me,
Look within your heart then ask,
Have you seen my Childhood?

People say I'm strange that way
'Cause I love such elementary things,I
t's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood I've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like fantastical stories to share
The dreams I would dare, watch me fly...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me.
The painful youth I've had

Have you seen my Childhood


If you are still feeling all alone---> God has the cure. He loves you. Find Him. ;-)

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

A joyful July










Fuad is doing preparation for his presentation tomorrow morning and I made a decision to stay awake until he finishes doing the power point slides. I love being a wife since I have a full time partner in my life and also in my room.

Oh yes. I just redecorated our room last week when I have had spare time. I changed the carpet to a bigger one so that it occupies half of the tiles in our room. Magically, even though it was just a small modification to the older one but it has changed a lot the atmosphere of our room now. Yes. We like it a lot! The carpet is so big and thick when unexpectedly we slept jadedly on it yesterday as both of us were hopelessly tired from our hectic weekend programme. Surprisingly, it was comfortable enough since we slept in a good snoring melody sounds till morning.

Since for the past two weeks back I have experienced so many good memories that I could not explain it here. It’s a priceless moment to meet again my best friend in university and spent one whole day with her in a trip to Genting. I was overjoyed and thrilled to go back to the place where we used to have fun and released stress while studying in university. And once again we went to the same place with the same reason and gladly for this time we made a big achievement for ourselves. Both of us had dream for a long time to try the ‘ Space Shot’ ride. It is like a big and tall tower in Genting and everyone who had come there would try it at least once in a lifetime. And this time, finally when we are in the age of 24 we made a promise to try it; and thank God we made it and proved ourselves we are not chicken. :-)

This is my last week as a full time housewife when next week I will start working. It seems like you will be reading different and more adventurous stories in times ahead. I can’t wait to experience that and I am hoping I will still have plenty of times to write and share it with my readers. Insya Alllah.

I love to say this to cheer myself everyday ‘the gift of life unwraps itself through time; all we need to do is sit back and enjoy its contents’. Yes. I am so optimistic about life so that I can smile when I wake up every day in the morning. Oh dear sunshine please brighten up my days and darling happiness please find me and make my days as colourful as always.

Oh..Fuad is calling me saying “ sayang..it’s time to sleep”. It’s a wrap for today. Good night!

Thursday, July 16, 2009

We came, We learned, We enjoyed


















A trip to the most historical city in Malaysia ----->> Melaka. The trip was on ..wait a minute..let me check on my calendar..ahaks..on the 4th and 5th July 2009. I know it’s a bit of an outdated news ..:D

What I like most about this trip is both of us did a last minute plan. All these time, we have planned to have a long vacation to Langkawi Island since the very last time we visited the place was during our primary school and everybody was talking about the new Langkawi, with its modern sophisticated look. I crazily want to go there as I have missed the trip on early this year when my whole bunch of JB family went there. I suggested to hubby and he agreed but the problem is being a doctor you have to be prepared to sacrifice your time and that means your holiday too!!

Hence, when there was oblige wedding ceremony to attend which take place in Umbai, Melaka, he ecstatically recommended us to take this chance and stay for a night in Melaka. I was thrilled to this idea indeed! Notwithstanding the fact that we would stay only for a night, it is better off than staying listlessly in our house during weekend.

So after helping here and there and not forgetting to be the instant wedding assistant photographer, we said goodbye to everyone and shoot to the city of Melaka to book a hotel. Have I mentioned that we have not made any hotel reservation yet before making the decision to spend our weekend in Melaka??? Yes, the answer is NO and that was the most brilliant plan that I could think of. (It means sarcastic in a polite manner) The result; we had to go to EVERY hotels ever existed in Melaka. Money had to put aside as priority went to finding a place to stay a night.

Arrrghhh..Melaka seems like a Las Vegas city during weekend, crowded with loads of people from around the world. Hubby suggested if there’s no room at all we could stay at his grandmother’s house situated in Klebang, Melaka which is 30 minutes driving from the city. Meanwhile, deeply in my heart I wanted to spend the best of our time together with no interruption from familiar faces. Hence finally after a tiring but yet amazing hotel exploration around Melaka we managed to find one room at Orchid Hotel situated in the heart of that city. There’s only one room left for us; ‘studio suite’. With no hesitation we agreed upon the gift rewarded to us after a tired walk. (Yes, we did walk since it’s faster than driving).

So the rest are left untold but the pictures could maybe explain everything. (The truth is I am feeling a bit dizzy to continue writing.) Hope you will enjoy watching us posing like school students enjoying their very first school trip.

P/s: I should bring along my book on our next vacation to jolt down hubby’s never ending explanation on history, places etc, but definitely I learned a lot on our history from this trip and it made me appreciate more of the freedom that we gain today:-) .

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Eureka!!


As a gentle reminder I would like to remind all readers that this is a continuation of my previous entry. I am highly appreciated for the responds I received from the readers whom I adore very much. I have reached home in KL on Sunday evening. Everything is back to reality again. (At JB home I was pampered like a queen!)To Uswah, I haven’t seen you for a while. You must been busy adapting with your new schedule I bet. ;-)

Ok. Let us get back to the main story here. I have told you yesterday that I was lost in my own world due to the reason of having no book at all to read. As I was feeling better today, I went happily to the MPH bookstore to find the Melissa Hill’s book. Oh God, it’s a bad day to shop I guess. They received lots of new book racks and they were doing a small renovation for the shop. Meanwhile I could not delay any further the exhilaration of going inside the shop and grab my book! I asked the girl who was standing at the cashier counter whether it is safe for me to go inside. She replied with a sweet smile. I got the meaning and cheerfully tried to find the book.

Ermm.. There’s still one problem. The books were everywhere. Some were still inside the boxes, some were left dumped on the floor (pity to the books..:( ), and some were on the racks unorganised that made me almost impossible to find my book! I spent circa half an hour to make few rounds at the shop when suddenly..I mean suddenly...I saw Melissa Hill ‘Before I Forget’ on the corner of one rack at the back of the shop. Pheww..Alhamdulillah.. Gladly when I was queuing to pay the book, the girl who helped out to look for the book whispered to me ‘You are lucky. It was the only and the last one of Melissa Hill’s book that we have right now. Hope you enjoy reading it’

Ngeeeeee.....Happy!! Problem solved!

At the mean time, I have all collections from Tony Parson’s book. You should buy and read them. He’s extremely brilliant in putting words to make it as beautiful as always, the stories were consistently moving in all books and the characters were at all times amazing. I wish I could do the same to Melissa Hill’s as I only have three from her overall books. One thing that I like most about her books is you can’t put it down and it will keep you turning the pages until the very end. It feels like riding a rollercoaster or better than that!! *wink*wink*

After that, I headed to one of the shoe shop. I always wanted and love to wear comfort shoes. For the time being, I have a black Pierre Cardin shoes which I wear almost the time. It was a gift from hubby. I will wear it during formal function or when I like to (It’s flexible comfort!). On the other hand, if I want to be more feminine, I will wear my white Hush Puppies shoes. It was also a gift from hubby. It’s a wedge heel design hence even though it’s quite high it could still support my overall weight. If I want to go to mamak stall, market or to be more specific to be more casual I would put on my brown Scholl sandal. The design is simple and simplicity is the best. Hence, I always dream to have one good sporty shoe because the one that I have now is not too comfort while wearing it. Today I bought Nike shoes. It’s black and I think it’s gorgeous.

So, I am proudly to declare that I only have 4 pairs of shoes. If you happen to meet me, don’t forget to see which shoes I am wearing on that day!

See you again. I have a date with Ms Hill. ;-) ( Dismiss with a polite smile) !!

Monday, July 13, 2009

Book Maniac


I live with story books throughout my life. People who are close to me will realise this. It is a must for me to bring along my story books whenever I go. I know this will make your head think twice on this matter. I don’t blame you. My husband when he first saw me carry my books on our first honeymoon was shocked to death to see me enjoying my books more than the scenery of the beautiful landscape of Lanjut. As far as I could remember, it all started when I was 6 years old when I could spell the words well. I would imagine myself to be part of the story and read it under my bed that later on brought me to wear an eyeglass.


Books have become part of my daily routine just like bathing, eating and brushing teeth. I could not live a day without it

I have finished out reading my very last story book ‘The Last to Know by Melissa Hill’ on last 3 days and I feel completely lost now. I was in my hometown Johor Bahru during weekend and the bookstore in JB do not have Melissa Hill’s or even Tony Parson’s books. I just planned to buy a new one today but sadly I am not in my best health hence I fill in my day at the moment by reading few of my favourite blogs. Oh, thanks to the technology! It helps me to lighten up my day =)

Hope I will get better soon and buy the next book on my top of the list; ‘Before I Forget-by Melissa Hill’

Friday, July 3, 2009

Health Awareness


According to the World Health Organization 60 years ago, they defined health as ‘a state of complete physical, mental and social wellbeing’. Guess what? By this barometer description to define human health, I could say approximate 95% human being around globe could be said to be unhealthy for most of their lives. Today, health is considered as a subjective awareness of wellbeing. And of course, as all of us know ,the prerequisites for wellbeing are still sufficient amounts of healthy food and physical activity and adequate amounts of sleep, as well as a healthy environment and good social relationship or to be specific ; the choice of circle of friends.

There is completely no doubt that regular physical activity is good for our health. Sports, in particular can improve overall fitness, stimulate body metabolism, and reduce stress from a tiring working day, and prevent cardiovascular diseases. (Dr Fuad helped me a lot to create bombastic medical terms this time.) Some types of sport, however, have very slight health benefits but have a high risk injury such as boxing, hang-gliding (flying fox) and surprisingly football! Other sporting activities can result in damaged muscles and joints if practised without proper training and instruction. Hence it is important to have a professional certified practitioner who could supervise, monitor and at the same time instruct us to follow the right way during the training session. We have to be mindful of the most frequent injuries are to muscles and these often pass unnoticed at first.

On the previous early of June I made myself registered to an aerobic class. I was so thrilled to do the exercise as during student life we were pampered by the facilities provided by the university and I made a full used of it. When I was young I made friend with lots of boys and I was getting used to having an energetic healthy life as sport is the medium approach to fulfil it. Alhamdulillah I am so lucky to have a brilliant instructor who can teach me a combination of physical exercise with a dance movement which I love so much. I have a basic dance skill which I learned at my primary school. I was an active student who loved arts and dancing performances were my best memory ever that could be captured during my childhood time. For this reason, by taking this aerobic class is such an opportunity of a life time! I could not resist it when I first saw the business card of the owner of the studio when my husband handed it to me.

It is a muslimah aerobic class therefore we do not have to cover the aurah as in public place. It’s one of the reason I joined it because it give freedom to my body to move unreservedly without being worried of the existence of male creature. The main reason of joining aerobic class is not to make myself become as light as feather but to gain a healthy body and live a healthy life. I am not a big fan of skinny body type since forever but as long as I have a good body proportion it is more than enough for me.

So friends, you don’t have to belong to a sports club to be fit. Even gentle physical exercise is healthy if practised daily. Maybe just 30 minutes a day of climbing stairs, brisk walking, and swimming or cycling have beneficial effects on our blood pressure, pulse rate and blood vessels. Since cardiovascular diseases are the most common causes of death in industrialised countries such as Malaysia, the effect of regular exercise is to prolong life. Because physical activity stimulates the metabolism, it reduces the risk of contracting other diseases and improves generate fitness and quality of life, especially as people age.

Even though you have not include to start exercise in your ‘what-to-do-list’ in your New Year resolution, believe me there is no reason for an excuse because our body is the greatest gift from God and we will be asked in the hereafter on how we used it. Thus stop making excuses and start exercise NOW! :PP

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

My hectic weekend

Phew..My last weekend was totally packed with lots of activities from early morning of Saturday till Sunday evening. My parents with my youngest brother came by and stayed at one of the hotel in Kuala Lumpur since my old man had a job need to be done during two whole days. At the same time cousins of my husband’s side were the guest of the house for 2 nights as there were a wedding reception of my hubby’s cousin, Akob on Saturday and Friday. I assume you can imagine how busy I was during my weekend. =) But one way or another I was extremely delighted to speed up the time to welcome my parents and provide them with special treats in terms of good quality time.

On the day upon my dad’s arrival he called to let me know they have safely arrived while hubby suggested joining them breakfast at the hotel where they were staying. I smiled joyfully. =0 Dad reminded us to come before 8:30 am where in his world; punctuality plays a vital aspect of his life whereas I am still behind him regarding time management. We could only arrived 15 minutes before 9am and I was trying my best to hide behind the pillar of the lobby hotel when finally my mom could see me playing hide and seek with her. Gosh!! Blame the alarm clock please... Daddy’s face is always not at his best when he is hungry and I perfectly contributed to ruin his mood on early Saturday. Daddy...I am truly sorry.. =(((

As the foods started to fill in into his stomach, dad’s mood slowly changed to its normal condition. Thank God! Hubby and I then rushed back to Setiawangsa home without mommy coming along us as she claimed she had some works need to be submitted on Monday. The three of us including my youngest brother Hafiz went to a Wangsa Maju Mosque to catch up with the solemnization ceremony. It was a simple and quick one.

My little Hafiz requested to his big ‘brother’ Fuad to bring him to Petrosains in KLCC and he granted the wish. Circa 1pm off we drove to KLCC. The little one was excited during the 4 hours venture in Petrosains because hubby treated him like a prince junior. =) It was exactly my fifth trip to Petrosains and I believe after having our own kids we shall visit again Petrosains in future. Even though we were tremendously exhausted but we had a great time together.

We had a dinner at the Lala Restaurant at Jln Raja Muda in Kampung Baru as a special treat from hubby to his in-laws. My parents will never miss out to have dinner at this restaurant whenever they come to Kuala Lumpur. It reminisce back the memories we had with my late grandmother who loved to eat the foods served here. It’s quite expensive but definitely worth for your money. ;-)

The next morning I woke up at 5:30am and I could not sleep back afterwards. Lesson I’ve learned; Never repeat the same mistake twice. We managed to arrive approximate at 8am on Sunday and daddy greeted us at hotel lobby with a great satisfaction face. We made sure we eat well today as it’s the last of the breakfast sponsorship by mom and dad for two days in a row at that hotel. Weehuuu..Thanks a lot to both of you.

Around 12:30 pm all the family members of hubby’s side have already gathered at home and we arrived at the bride’s place at 1pm. We tried to eat as fast as possible as mommy and daddy wanted to pay a visit to abah and ummi at 3 pm. Mom and dad then came by when finally at 4:30pm they drove back to JB.

I am tired but in all honesty I am happy. Please come again mommy and daddy and lighten up my weekend once more.

Monday, June 22, 2009

Natural beauty

Being raised in a family where women win the majority number out of men made me understand more about being a lady. Women or for those who feel comfortable to be called as girl must have a desire to look good and nice in crowd; and so do I. One of the ways to make them feel complete when they step out from the front door of the house is by applying makeup. It’s like a rule of thumb of women nowadays to make a drastic change of their appearance.

My mom once when I was still a child loved so much putting on tons of makeup on her natural beauty face. I always sat on her bed and wondered myself why such a beautiful lady needs a massive touch up on her face? I could never answer myself as I was lack of beauty knowledge of women back then. Mom’s face always had varieties number of colors like a rainbow. It was more like a color code; bright red on her lip, pink on her both cheeks, three tones of colors on her eye-lids. To me I preferred mom’s face better when she’s at home rather than to see her treated her face like a piece of canvas paper!

Being a middle child among three girls when I was a teenage girl sometimes was tough for me. My eldest sister and my younger sister shared a same outlook on dressing up themselves and putting on makeup. I was the one who always cared less on personal style hence occasionally I felt being outcast among them. They used to spend extra time together just to enhance their makeup skill.. Oh.. I envied both of you =)

I always believe in natural beauty. I feel comfortable wearing my naked face whenever my husband and I go out. It’s like a freedom of oneself to bring out her true colors to the world. To me plain face is an absolute beauty and I adore most every woman out there who feels comfortable with their own skin.

In my point of view, beauty is the inner glow every woman has. Everyone wants to look good and feel beautiful. Although all of us want to look our best at all times, but the fact of the matter is that we look the best when we feel great from within. The secret to looking and feeling great is to take care of ourselves. It can be achieved by eating healthy foods and live a healthy life style and “tadaa” you will become the most beautiful girl on earth ever. =)

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Father's Day Celebration












Practically I have not celebrated father’s day ever since I was young because my dad always reminds us every day is a father’s day, and we should renew our love to him just like we renew our love to God.

But as I moved in to my husband’s house, father’s day celebration is an annual event and they will celebrate it as a formal function which means grand dinner is a must for abah. I am still adapting to new things in my life and this one is an exact example of it. To me it’s totally an advantage to my stomach for I could load in as much as I could inside it.

Hence on Friday it was, circa 8pm my hubby drove abah and mama as a special treat for him to one of the classic architectural building ever at the heart of Kuala Lumpur. The restaurant represents Malaysia in a nutshell. The Rumah Kampung (village house) exterior, together with the carved wooden interior, adds authenticity to the place. Cultural shows such as traditional dances are performed daily. They served local cuisine and small portion of western foods as well.

Oh, I did enjoy myself watching the performance from the multiracial dancers and my stomach was absolutely bloated from varieties of foods taken last night. Thanks for the dinner. I am looking forward for the next one.* wink*wink*

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Shoe talk

Not so long ago roughly about 3 years back, if you happened to meet me, you will definitely call me a fashion freak. If you see someone wearing a bright vibrant color it might be me; I loved to match my clothing attire with one color theme. Let say for example if on that day I decided to wear a pink color hence my overall outfit would be pink from head to toe! It is crazy isn’t? :-)

Oh, shoes? Yes, I had almost 30 pairs of shoes with different colors and style to match it with my clothes. Comfort ability? I never thought of it. My pocket money was just enough for me to afford Vincci shoes or Nose shoes so I could buy new shoes every months. .

As time passes by, I realized that I’ve had already become a new person with a new fashion style. My taste of fashion nowadays is indeed a taste of modern women yet equally exotic and modest as a muslim dress. The thing that I want to point out here is I have put good quality things above anything else. It may sounds like a typical rich-spoiled-girl, but I have my own ground on this. I bought pricey but yet affordable shoes so I can use it for a whole year. I am shocked with my achievement so far; I bought three shoes since last September and I never have an intention to buy a new one.

My shoe size is big for an Asian girl and to find good shoes that could support my back bone, my total weight, and that could bring comfort to my feet is almost impossible. Did you know that if you always wear shoes that cannot support your total weight and plus make your feet hurt while wearing it could bring a disaster to your future health?

My husband always recommends for good quality leather shoes and I totally agree with him. So it’s better for me to splurge some amount of money for good shoes that can last for a whole year instead of gazing around over and over again at shopping malls to purchase new shoes. It’s actually a good habit since it is absolutely worth it for your money and your health!

So maybe the next time for me to buy a new one is only on Eid Fitri and I will only go with my husband for the reason that I always like his sense of fashion style and he will definitely choose the right and the best shoes for his wife.

It is worth the effort to find the right shoe for you and it is worth spending a few extra pennies. My feet and legs will thank me for this. ;-)

saya terdiam lalu berfikir...

Setelah lama mendiamkan diri dan hanya melihat bait-bait indah daripada rakan-rakan blog, saya terfikir sejenak adakah betul keputusan ku untuk menulis blog semenjak dari awal lagi kemunculanku di alam maya ini? Berlegar-legar segala persoalan di minda saya. Jujur saya katakan bahawa saya tidak la begitu teruja untuk menceritakan dan berkongsi bersama tentang kehidupanku bersama rakan-rakan yang mungkin tidak ku kenali. Semua ini begitu baru dan asing bagi saya lalu kadangkala hasilnya mungkin agak mengecawakan kerana saya menulis dalam keadaan terpaksa.

Sekiranya ada rakan-rakan yang mengenali diri saya ini, pasti mereka akan mengatakan saya bersikap rahsia dan hanya akan bercerita dengan mereka yang saya rasakan selesa untuk berkongsi bersama. Nah, di sini saya seperti membogelkan diriku ini untuk setiap manusia mengenali dan memahami diriku. Maaf sekiranya saya katakan bahawa kadang kala melalui penulisan rakan-rakan semua saya seperti dapat menghalusi sikap dan perwatakan mereka di dunia sebenar.Perasaan takut dengan tiba-tiba menghantui saya sekiranya rakan-rakan yang tidak saya kenali dapat membaca isi fikiran ini dan mula menilai saya melalui gaya penulisan saya.

Kadangkala saya merasakan saya lebih berminat untuk menjadi sang pencerita yang melakarkan warna-warni kehidupan pelakon di muka bumi ini daripada memasukkan diri ini ke dalan tajuk utama penceritaan dan dipertontonkan di hadapan khalayak semua. Itu sudah pasti lebih mengujakan.

Tetapi kadangkala jauh di sudut hati ini mengatakan bahawa diriku perlu mempunyai teman untuk bercerita dan bergelak ketawa bersama. Rakan-rakan dan sahabat-sahabat yang selalu di ingatan telah pergi mengikut haluan masing-masing untuk meneruskan peperangan dalam realiti kehidupan yang sebenar. Di minda apa yang tergambar adalah saya sebagai penulis yang sedang bercerita bersama-sama sahabat sejati; rakan-rakan yang tidak mungkin mengahakimi diri ini . Jadi pinta diri ini hanyala supaya bersedia untuk mendengar cerita saya ini tanpa memikirkan terlalu mendalam mengenai diri saya. Saya hanyalah insan biasa yang menulis sebagai memenuhi kehendak jiwa ini yang perlu meluahkan buah fikiran dan meluahkan perasaan di dada.

Jumpa lagi di warkah seterusnya.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Three is better than two


Sometimes when he’s not around at home because of the duty at hospital, I feel so lonely and I mean it.

I used to be happy when I have my own sweet time when no one disturbs my so-called “isolated world”. I could watch a movie marathon from morning till late evening. I would enjoy every single bit of my precious me- time.

But, now... everything has changed.

I don’t need my spare time so much as it would make my day worthless.

I suppose I am ready now to share my love with another person instead of my lovely husband. It’s not that my husband did not give enough love or whatsoever because he already gave me more that what I’ve wanted from him. After all, he’s my best man and my BFF.

All that I want now is to have a baby. I want it badly. A small creature of God that can do wonders to the world, a new person that could bring sunshine and happiness to both of us. Every time when we went out with his friends, they would bring along their children and I could not stop myself from imagining myself holding our own baby too.

Last week, as I waited at a pedestrian crossing, I saw a mother pushing a young toddler in a buggy came up alongside her. I tried to appear unmoved as the little girl caught my eyes and grinned, the child’s huge black eyes, high pony-tail curly hair and cute dimples making it impossible for me not to smile back. All happened too quickly and I straightened up and tried to look away, and when the pedestrian lights eventually went green I marched determinedly across the road, leaving the mother and child for dust.

I have always been a daughter to my mother. At this time I crave for a role of a mother as a substitute. Being a mother is the most important and the toughest job anyone will ever have. I do not expect everyone who reads my story to agree with me. I am very opinionated, but I believe that mothering is based on logic, instinct, intuition and lots of love.

Perhaps the time will come soon for both of us to become parents. Insya –Allah..


Thursday, June 4, 2009

Punishment

Have u ever experienced being punished right after you committed a sin?

Now, this is what happening to me and I am always aware with my behaviour and what I do thoroughly. In fact, after I got married this thing become so real, obvious and totally undeniable. I could not explain the reason of all these matter but for sure it made me realised that God is watching me consistently.

Sometimes when I thought of what I have done was just a small thing but God still put it into account. He never missed any of it! Some of my friends gave opinions before this that if a person always got punishment right after of what they did, they are a looser of their own life.

But to me honestly, it shows the love and tender by God to his humankind. If we try to look into this deeply, God will never do harm to people, but people are the one who destroy their life easily especially when they do not have a strong faith in God. I should say my condition nowadays is like a daily reminder for me to behave and act accordingly to the Syari’ah. It’s good actually for I will always be aware of everything that I do and never go around the place with my head in the clouds.

Do you think how long will u survive and remain alive in this entertainment world? Believe me. It’s not that long as u think of. I thought yesterday was January. 1. 2009. I thought I just knew my husband for like one week. When I saw my wedding photos I thought I was still in my wedding dress. The reality is that all of them were way back in the history and it's proven when I saw my calendar today. There’s nothing in this life is permanent. Just look around yourself for examples. Even when I thought the shoes that I bought which is extremely expensive could stay longer for its service at least for a year just broken after I used it not more than a month. By God’s will everything is possible.

In Islam, we have to work hard as if the world has no end; at the same time we have to strive hard to be the best Muslim ever as if today is our last day in this universe. What I have to do now is to make the both weights balance every time.



What should I bring to God when the judgement day comes?



Are you ready for it?

Monday, June 1, 2009

It's just a post

The weather is freaking hot today. My armpits are sweating like a Niagara Waterfall. Blame to human being for greedy developments, and mischief conducts all around the world.

The only reason I did not update my post is just because I do not have any interesting story to begin with. My husband and I just spent our Thursday night and Saturday afternoon to watch movies at Galaxy Ampang. Haha..after married life, cuddling up with husband and laying around in room is the best thing to do if we have spare time together. He was extremely busy with his work at hospital last week until to see his face while sleeping was merely enough to me.

Ok.Let’s talk about the movie as it is the only thing that I can write here. “The Terminator-Salvation” Have u watched this movie? I want to recommend you to go and buy the ticket of this movie for those who have been following this movie since Arnold Schwaz.....Damn..I still don’t know how to spell his name correctly! I went to watch this movie because my husband loves this movie so much and as far as I could remember my parents is a diehard fan of ‘The Terminator’ movie. We used to watch this movie at our huge TV at home at night while eating junk foods as dessert after dinner. ( OH...pls don’t follow this as it’s not good for your health).

It’s basically about John Connor who is a man fated to lead the human resistance against Skynet and its army of Terminators. But the future that Connor was raised to believe in is altered in part by the appearance of Marcus Wright, a stranger whose last memory is of being on death row. Connor must decide whether Marcus has been sent from the future, or rescued from the past. As Skynet prepares its final onslaught, Connor and Marcus both embark on an odyssey that takes them into the heart of Skynet's operations, where they uncover the terrible secret behind the possible annihilation of mankind.

There were lots of fighting scenes here and there. So, don’t miss to watch it!

Friday, May 29, 2009

To all women out there.Don't miss this opportunity to know your right!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Sorry..I'm quite busy lately baking my cakes, doing workout, learning how to cook and did my preparation for my usrah presentation.

I want to make this very short,
But it doesn't means this is not important.


To my dear friends,
As women, we sometimes lack of information about women's right.
That's why we always heard in the news, stories from our friends..etc that women have been abused by husbands, brutal rape cases by husband without consent, and many more...
These women were being treated like that because they didn't know their right in our law.

Jemaah Islah Malaysia is a legal NGO in Malaysia.
They will hold a seminar on "Kempen Kesedaran "One Stop Crisis Centre" " - Seminar Katakan Tidak Kepada Keganasan Rumah Tangga"

The panels are from various background from Doctors, Chief Inspector and Lawyers.
So, don't miss this opportunity to take a chance of a lifetime to listen and grab the knowledge from this seminar. It will be held from 8:30- 1:00p.m. Oh, the details are :


Date: 30th/ May/2009
Time:8:30 a.m. - 1:00 p.m.
venue: Dewan Suria, Construction And Industrial Safety,
Training Centre Sdn Bhd,
Ground Floor, Bangunan Pro Centre,
Lot 3301, Batu B
Jln Ulu Kelang,
6800 Ampang,
selangor Darul Ehsan.


Oh God, Im so late. I have to play squash now. See You tomorrow!!!

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

My Choice Of M.U.S.I.C

Even though my age is 24 and it will turn to be 25 next year but still if u ask me what kind of music that I love to listen to, I would definitely respond ‘ Slow music songs from Josh Groban’s, James Blunt’s, Brian Mcknight’s, duet of Kci and Jojo, Kitaro’s instrumental songs and lastly my all time favourite which is Disney’s Songs! ‘. What really surprised me is my choice of music never changed since I was young. :-) Maybe my soul is more close to these kind of songs..My ears can never accept fast beat songs as I would feel headache and immediately a feeling to throw out. Pity me..

Some people listen to music because of the melody, or perhaps the lyrics of the songs that kind of related to themselves, or most probably there was an event that will remind them of someone or a place they have been to. But to me, I’m more into good lyrics with a combination of fine melody.

As for me, music plays an ultimate role in my life. It’s my way to make myself more relax and calm and sometimes it would be my inspiration when I’m doing something that needs creativity such as drawing, colouring or writing.

I’m quite an emotional type of person. Occasionally I would cry over a good song. There’s no specific reason for this matter, but it’s true I would cry when I heard “Japanese Sakura” by Kitaro.. I’m so pathetic!! ;P It would ring a bell during my childhood time.. .Meanwhile I would feel energetic and lively when I listen to ‘Matsuri also by Kitaro’. This song is truly evergreen and amazing and inspiring!! I always had a dream to be one of Kitaro’s team whenever he does performance. I don’t mind at all even if I just get the role of a backdrop tree!! In my point of view, his music is such a masterpiece in worldwide after Mozart. Haha,, I know I’m a bit exaggerating here ,but deeply in my heart I just want to believe that.

Oh music is so beautiful only if we know how to appreciate it, use it as an inspiration and be motivated by it.

I've already added my mini MP3 gadget.So hope u will enjoy listening to my Kitaro!



May God be with U

It’s been a heart-rending week for me honestly and it never gets any better..

To sum up everything, I assume a treat of my darling Mcflurry Oreo, and luscious Hazelnut White Coffee are still not enough to get me back on my usual mood. Don’t be panic because as the time passes by, my feeling will be healed eventually. My past experiences have proven it undeniably.

I got a strange message from my long lost buddy. I said it’s strange because it’s been a while she has not contacted me because something has happened between us in the earlier period of our teenage life. But, I never had a tiny feeling of hatred towards her. She was my best friend. How could I hate my best friend? She’s married now with a small cute baby. She never told me but I still managed to be updated with her current life with only one basic reason; it’s because I Care.

As I went through her message my heart stopped for a moment. “I’ve been abused by my husband in front of my baby when he likes to. He accused me of having affair. I cannot go out from the house without him along. I think he doesn’t love me anymore. What should I do now? I’m scared......”

My head is spinning. I better sleep now. It’s by now 12 in the morning. I will continue when I feel to.

Let’s pray together for my dearest friend to hope that her scary dream will end soon. I believe there’s no women in the world who love to be treated like a doormat...:-(

Saturday, May 16, 2009

I need to recharge my body!

There were lots of things happening around me these days.. But my body and my mind just feel tired to force my hands to write anything here.

Sometimes I think most probably people just getting bored on my writings that are always too long to read. But, it’s my style and I’ve tried so many times to make it short but it ends up with me feeling stressed out to compress everything in a few paragraphs. I never know when I’m going to update my stories by referring to my mood nowadays. God, lately I am always tired..Perhaps I need to rejuvenate myself. Hmmm, facial and body treatment sounds interesting. I think that’s exactly what I need now.

So, take care everybody and may u have a nice day!

Friday, May 8, 2009

A tribute to Mama

I had a dream. A dream that was so beautiful. I was playing a firecracker wearing a stunning white knee-length gown in my own fantasy world whiles my mother gazing at me from one corner of the park on a branch. The sky was so bright and the birds flew happily. My mom looked so young seems like her early 30s. We then walked together by the lake with my one hand holding my mom’s hand and the other holding a pink balloon printed on it “Happy “. I remembered clearly that we laughed all the time and had a good time together. Then, I woke up in the night and cried. I have turned to be a lady now and my mother does not hold my hand anymore.

I believe everyone has a story to tell about their mom. Mom; life without a mom is like a body without a soul. A mother loves right from the start when she holds her baby close to her heart. Mommy said I was the biggest and largest when I was born on February 22 1985. We helped each other to get through the pain quickly hence we could save both lives. I helped mommy by kicking her stomach and mommy helped me by pushing me out. Unfortunately it was mommy alone who felt the pain. I cried out loud because this world was so strange to me and it was my first attempt to breathe on my own so mommy put me on her arms and her face looked so calm.

A hero is someone who is idealized or held in esteem for superior qualities or deeds of any kind. My hero is my mother. She is beautiful, strong, caring, loving and devoted. I do not think that even a thesaurus has enough synonyms to depict her. I suppose that she possesses the qualities of a true hero.

My mother is extremely strong. She has experienced many difficult obstacles and decisions in her life but has faced each one with integrity and courageousness. Through it all she has managed to keep food on the table and keep a roof over our heads. She has also made sure that her three daughters had a good education and did not mind at all to attend our school ceremony alone.

During childhood I was scared of the dentist. When I first came to the clinic, I was one of the children in the world who created a major problem to the dentist; I kicked hard the dentist together with the nurses. I ran out from the clinic and my mom grabbed my hand and told me everything will be ok.” I’m here for you”. Afterwards, sometimes my mom would pull out my teeth on her own and I would squeeze her arms until it left few bruises. She never complained though.. If I really had to go see the dentist onwards, she would sit on the chair next to me and steadfastly promised to reward me with a big box of colour pencils since I love colouring so much or other small presents that she could afford to buy for me so that I won’t kick the dentist yet again.

I was the most badly behaved daughter when I was small. I would stare mommy's eyes if she scolds me. I could sit and locked myself in my room for the whole day if I had a big fight with my big sister. I sent mommy lots of letters at late nights under her door if I wanted to express my feeling towards her. Mommy never gets panic with my behaviour. She told me it happens sometimes in a family where some of the children wanted attention from the parents and I was one of them.

Eight years ago when I was 16, I never thought I would be sick. When my friends lined up to prepare for congregational prayer, I stood up to be in the line but suddenly I felt dizzy and fainted.... The rest I could not remember until I was in the clinic and the doctors injected me 4 times on my hips and the ambulance brought me to the hospital immediately. My friend told me when I was fainted the warden called my parents and they were there while I was in the clinic. To make it short, doctors explained to my parents ‘there is something growing inside my both ovaries. If I come later than this, the growing cell inside me could explode in my body. They need to investigate whether it is a cyst cell or a cancer cell. If it is a cyst cell, it is good news because they can just open my stomach and my ovary and take out the cyst but if it is a cancer cell it will be more difficult because I have to go through chemotherapy’. Mom looked horrified but I understood nothing. I had to stay for two nights in the hospital so that doctors could take as much blood as they wanted for a lab test. Mom companied me at night and I heard her pray to God to make my pain stop soon. I cried quietly not because the needles hurt my skin and my nerves, but because I could not bear to see her crying because of me.... When we waited in the hospital for the lab test to be announced one month after that, mom didn’t talk at all. She gazed at the floor and her face was pale. Then the nurse called my number and we entered the room together. Thankfully the result was good. Mom hugged me immediately and said ‘Alhamdulillah’.

When I was 20 I was admitted in the hospital again because the doctors in UIA suspected me having a TB disease. I had a blood stained cough during that time. I had a fever for almost 2 weeks and there was no sign I am getting better. I swallowed 2 painkillers so that I could take a bus to JB that night. I did not want to be alone in the hospital without mommy. My sister brought me to UTM clinic. My blood pressure (BP) was too low and I lost a lot of water in my body hence they gave me IV drip immediately. Two hours later they woke me up to conduct x-ray. While the medical assistant asked me to stand up so that he can take my x-ray, I collapsed on the floor (I saw lots of black stars!).My BP dropped further more. So, an ambulance came and brought me to Hospital Sultanah Aminah JB (HSAJB). I was warded for a week in ICU and this time I was really in a pain. I could not even go to the toilet on my own. Mom always helped me even though I said to her I am shy. I was helpless and mom at all times gave her best smile to make me happy. The doctors in UIA predicted it wrongly; it' was not a TB but a chest infection. In so far as I could remember it was the longest time that I have ever spent with mom. She was on my side 24/7 days. At night I sometimes had a scary dreams and I shouted for help in my sleep. It was the time when my temperature shoot up until 47C. In the morning she told me about it and we laughed together like it was a funny joke. I knew perfectly from her big eye bag under her eyes that she didn’t have a good night sleep at all. I felt pity to mommy but she never complained about it.

Before I am married to my man, those stories were not remembered in my mind at all but as I turned out to be a woman and living far away from my mother; these stories have changed to be impeccable as I will bear in mind that they were the evidence that my mom is the best mom in the world for better or worse. My love towards her is growing stronger every day.

My mother’s name is Nur Azian Bt Abdul Manaff. When we needed a friend or help that always came free. Her personality gives us our strength and our sense of humour. In my eyes, I am just like my mom. I can only hope that one day my children will respect me and have the relationship with me that I have with my mom. I think that in the last few years I have stopped looking at my mother as an authority figure. I now look at her as a best friend. I love my mother very much. She is, and always will be, my hero. Happy Mother’s day! ( I hope you will read this mom)

Last but not least, borrowing the Kari Keshmiry’s poetry;

MORE THAN A MOTHER

When God set the world in place,
when He hung the stars up in space,
when He made the land and the sea,then He made you and me.

He sat back and saw all that was good,
He saw things to be as they should.
Just one more blessing He had in store;
He created a mother, but whatever for?

He knew a mother would have a special place to shine His reflection on her child's face.
A mother will walk the extra mile just to see her children smile.
She'll work her fingers to the bone to make a house into a home.

A mother is there to teach and guide,
a mother will stay right by your side.
She'll be there through your pain and strife,
she'll stay constant in your life.

A mother will lend a helping hand
until you have the strength to stand.
She'll pick you up when you are down,
when you need a friend she'll stick around.
A mother is one who listens well,
will keep her word; will never tell
A mother never pokes or pries but stands quietly by your side,
giving you the strength you need,encouraging you to succeed.
A mother is one who can be strong when you need someone to lean on.
You're more than a mother to me;
a reflection of Him in your face I see,
a love that knows no boundaries.
I'm glad that you chose to be all this and more to me.
You share a love that knows no end,
you're more than my mother,you are my friend.


Monday, May 4, 2009

A place called home

















We went back to my hometown in JB last two weeks to pay a family visit. We agreed to at least go back to my home every one and a half month even though both of us are quite busy and not forgetting the journey will cost some amount of money which is not cheap.

So, on Friday evening after Jumaat prayer we packed our belonging and circa 3:30pm we started the journey to JB. Long distant travel is totally a new thing for him hence I volunteered myself to keep him company all the way from KL to JB. It was not easy actually to keep awake if you are not driving because you do not have anything to focus on. To overcome the boredom and laziness of my both eyes I decided to sing out loud to cheer up myself. I asked him curiously “Sayang, in your honest opinion how much will you rate me with five is for excellent and zero is for very poor? I won’t feel anything.” He answered honestly “Half”. I knew exactly the answer because in my family there was no one who got the talent in singing! We both laughed together and he promised to give me a basic singing lesson without charge.

We arrived in my home roughly 8pm and my father has already waited us in front of the door. As usual I gave him a big hug because I missed him so much. Mom cooked my favorite “Udang Sambal and Ikan Goreng”. God, it was super delicious. Yummy! Then, we directly shoot to my auntie’s house to visit my sick grandfather. He has planned to go back to his home in Labis, Segamat the next day when finally he was admitted again in Hospital Sultan Ismail around 6:30am because of the same symptom that attacked him at early morning. Hence, we spent the whole morning until 11am at the hospital for the procedure until my old grandfather was brought to a special room where the team of doctors can monitor his health.

After we reached home, I helped mommy to prepare lunch. I can’t exactly remember what our menu was on that day but if I’m not mistaken she cooked 6 menus in 1 hour. She was still our greatest chef in the family up until now! On the table while eating our meal, I made a request to my father to take us to Bandar Nusajaya because I’ve always read in the articles and newspapers on how people gave overwhelming comments about this rising city. As a Johorian, I should at least witness the progress of this city with the intention that I will have some knowledge about it if my future children asked their mommy. When we reached there my dad took some photos of us having fun in Bandar Nusajaya with mommy, little brother Amin and my husband. It was such an enjoyable trip to me.

I’ll make sure I behave myself and be a good wife to Mr Fuad so that we can come back again to Johor Bahru soon!! Oh, there’s no place in this world comparable with my Home Sweet Home, Tmn Perling.